The honeymoon’s over.
Me and this blog, we don’t talk so much anymore.
My life has radically changed from when I was a stay-at-home, wannabe writer. Even though the last of those days are barely a month gone, I have already made them into golden nuggets. I catch myself thinking, remember when I could put Tater down for a nap while Little Lady was at summer camp, and I could sit and think and write? Of course, my memory has blotted out the crazed insanity of the hour prior to getting her out the door.
The first morning I put Little Lady on the school bus was the also the first day I put on some make up and clocked into my new 22-hour a week life. Four hours a day… oh, poor me, right? But listen, here’s the reality of how four hours of work morphs into a whole day:
7AM – 8:30AM: Kids up, breakfasted, dressed; make lunches; squeeze in a couple of chores
8:30: Walk to bus stop; wave off Little Lady
8:40: Walk or drive to work; grab a coffee if time
9:00: Kiss Tater Tot goodbye downstairs in toddler room; walk upstairs to office or return home to do laundry, dishes or bills, or run into town to grocery shop
11:00: Return to work
3:30: Leave work
3:45: Meet bus
4:00-4:15: Disperse snacks, check backpack, go through mail
4:15-5:00: Workout while watching Oprah (who am I kidding? I’m mostly just standing in front of the TV, doing the occasional leg lift to justify watching TV for a few moments.)
5:00-6:00: Prepare and eat dinner
6:00-7:00: Clean up dinner and kids
7:00 – 7:30: Put kids in bed, read story, sing song, say good night, go downstairs, come back upstairs, put Tater back in bed, kiss goodnight, go downstairs, come back upstairs, put Tater back in bed, kiss goodnight, walk downstairs… (this can go on for 5 minutes or, like last night, 1/2 hour).
7:30 – : At this point I collapse on the couch and try to push my brain into writing mode, usually unsuccessfully, until I can keep my eyes open no longer.
Needless to say, I left out of the schedule the 6 circles I make around the house looking for the left shoe, or the 7 minutes I spend debating with Little Lady whether she should eat the soggy cereal of which she gave herself too big a helping, or the 11 minutes I am chasing a giggling Tater trying to grab his soupy diaper.
And there you have it – Monday to Friday, 7AM-10:30PM, poof!
I ask you, where’s the me in there? Where are the great tomes I’m meant to bring forth?
I know this is a time of transition and I will eventually settle into my new life. I plan to take three mornings for myself – schedule in my writing. No housework. No errands. No excuses.
Think I can do it?
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